Helmholtz and Bernard would be sent to the island but they were happy and also john was happy. John went to asked the controller if he could go to the island with Bernard and Helmholtz, but the controller said he couldn't. John said that he would go anywhere, where he could be alone. John chose the old lighthouse as his hermitage, which stood on the crest of the hill between puttenham and elstead. John first night in the hermitage was, deliberately, a sleepless one. He spent hours on his knees begging forgiveness and from time to time he stretched out his arms as though he were on the cross and he repeated, "oh forgive me! Oh, make me pure! Oh, help me to be good!". John went far away to be alone, but then found himself being happy. Three delta - minus land - workers from one of the puttenham bokanovsky groups happened to be driving to elstead and, at the top of the hill, they saw john hitting himself with a whip of knotted cords and later on came a man from the hourly r